Surprise from Pavements

Pernah ngga sih. Lo mau berusaha mencapai sesuatu, terus sebelum lo ngeluarin effort opportunity udah dateng duluan? Pernah? Apa yang lo temuin? Harapan?
Kalo lo merhatiin salah satu post yang belum lama-lama banget gue publish, lo bakal ngerti ini arahnya ke mana.

Gue menemukan sebuah harapan kecil. Gue ngga tau harapan ini bakal ngebawa gue ke mana, tapi gue ikutin aja. Ternyata perjalanan gue untuk mengejar harapan ini... penuh kejutan. Gue ternyata menghadapi sesuatu yang penuh konspirasi dan penuh intrik. Gue udah liat wujudnya, tapi gue belum bener-bener tau apa yang gue hadepin. Pikiran gue messed up.

Baru di jalan doang udah kayak gini.
Gimana kalo udah sampe tujuan?
Eh emang tujuan gue apa?
Ngga tau.
Daritadi gue jalan ngikutin harapan gue doang.
Harapan?
Polos banget.
Bisa ya percaya sama harapan?
Yakin banget dia ga bakal ngarahin ke tempat yang ngga-ngga?
Gue yakin kok.
Yakin?
Here's another surprise.
Oh fuck.

Am I chasing pavements? Well, I love adventures, those thrilling ones. But I don't wanna end up trapped here. Semakin banyak petunjuk, semakin bingung, semakin ambigu, semakin nyasar.

Lanjut jalan ngga nih?


We'll see where it ends. Lanjut.

iPod Shuffle Game!

Hai. Bosen juga ya akhir-akhir ini baca blog gue isinya curhat-curhatan semua. Maklumlah anak SMA. Udah banyak tugas, banyak kegiatan, baru putus pula. Hehehe.

Well sekarang gue mau ngerjain iPod shuffle game. Tau kan? Iya taun 2008-2009an emang ini lagi ngetren di kalangan blogger. Jadi dikasih pertanyaan-pertanyaan gitu, abis itu kita setel music player. Nah jawabnya pake judul lagu yang ngga sengaja keshuffle. Lucu deh jawabannya random gitu jadinya. Hari ini sumber pertanyaan gue dari sini.

So here it goes.

1. How are you feeling today? Can You Keep A Secret? (The Cab)
   Well, iya sih. My feeling today is a secret :p
2. Will I get far in life? I Bet You Look Good On The Dancefloor (Arctic Monkeys)
3. What is my best friend's theme song? Do You Want It All? (Two Door Cinema Club)
   Which best friend, anyway?
4. What is/was high school like? Temporary Bliss (The Cab)
   True. Soon we will realize that it's just a temporary bliss.
5. What is the best thing about me? This Ain't A Scene, It's An Arms Race (Fall Out Boy)
6. How was yesterday? There's A Good Reason Why Tables Are Numbered Honey, You JustHaven't Thought Of It Yet (Panic! At The Disco)
7. What is my love life like? Something Good Can Work (Two Door Cinema Club)
   Iya. Banget. If it ain't good it won't work.
8. What will my parents say to me? Burning (The Whitest Boy Alive)
9. What song will they play at my funeral? The City Is At War (Cobra Starship)
   Seakan-akan dunia bakal perang kalo ngga ada gue ahaha.
   
10. How does the world see me? Am I Wry? No (Mew)
    Yes, THIS! is how the world see me.
11. What do my friends really think of me? Living Louder (The Cab)
    They know their lives are flatter.
12. What is the world keeping a secret from me? Dead On Arrival (Fall Out Boy)
13. How do I make myself happy? Heaven's On Fire (The Radio Dept.)
    Good idea, burning the heaven would be fun.
14. What should I do with my life? Fireflies (Owl City) 
15. Will I have children? Tiffany Blews (Fall Out Boy)
    So I'll have a daughter named Tiffany and she will blow.
16. What is good advice? High and Dry (Radiohead)
17. What does everyone else think of my current life? Voices (Saosin) 
18. What type of men do I like? Open Happiness (Coca Cola Theme Song, Butch Walker)
    Semua orang juga suka ya sama yang bisa open happiness.
19. Where will I live? A Certain Romance (Arctic Monkeys)
    I will live in a certain romance? Ya deh ya.
20. What will my dying words be? Just Dance (Lady Gaga).
    Cukup jamet.

OH. Game ini sedikit banyak nunjukin selera musik gue ya ahaha. Kok tumben jawabannya ngga ada yang kocak-kocak banget, bete ah. Perasaan waktu kelas gue ngerjain ginian lawak-lawak banget. But that's ok. Coba kerjain kalo lagi bosen deh. Looking forward to seeing your answers.

Debatopia

Hidup itu ngga pernah lempeng. Ada aja yang bikin susah. Well, in these hard times, nothing is more pleasing than being in the place where you belong.

Debating. Aktifitas yang sedikit banyak ngisi hari-hari gue sejak SMA. Dulu gue join cuma karena iseng, dan ngga yangka ternyata debate membuka jalan gue ke sebuah dunia super plural dengan orang-orang yang pola pikirnya ngga bakal gue temuin di tempat lain. Di sini semua orang berpikiran terbuka tapi kritis. Pemikiran mereka juga luas sampe orang non-debater (terutama yang konservatif) kadang ngga terima. Saking bedanya, ngeliat non-debater jadi kaya liat muggle. Dan non-debater juga nganggap debate cuma aktifitas belaka. Kadang menganggap sepele, malah.

Gue ngga perlu mikir harus behave kaya apa untuk bisa merasa diterima di sini. Walaupun gue payah, ngga fluent ngomong Inggris dan debatnya masih pas-pasan, they never look down at me. Maka dari itu wajarlah kalo debatopia mulai kerasa seperti rumah. Karena di tempat lain gue ngga ngerasa senyaman ini.


Terus apa masalahnya sekarang?


Dunia-dunia gue yang lain minta gue pindah rumah sekarang.

The Edge

"There is no one can understand me truly. I do not go out and i will keep silent, Everyone is mania in general. You don't have time to sleep or to know others"

When darkness turns to light, it ends tonight. It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right. It's too late to fight. It ends tonight.


Bambang Ardhito Ramadhan,
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